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Fall Rains Down Tonight, damn.
This one was about a girl. Well, okay, the first 6 songs were. The last four were just silly.
Anyways uh, yeah. I really liked her.
God this was such a schizophrenic love letter.
The first track, named after a real event (I won a $5 Dunkin' Donuts gift card for being good and math and I gave it to her simply because I live in POVERTY and thus have no use for it, but I knew she went sometimes so yea it's more useful to her), was very TFOT inspired. The entire intro was just me trying to make something similar to F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X. and the rest is kinda just schizo mathcore anyways, except it was on the piano so yea. The piano is very underwater mario 64-like except also a bit disney love song-like.
The second track was designed to be more of a love song, but honestly that doesn't really set into place until the accidental interpolation of Heartaches sets in (yes the song from everywhere at the end of time, I realize how fucked up that is). All of these songs weren't even really about liking her but rather the stress that it caused to be honest. These feelings hardly show much love but just sheer anxiety. Much of my music showcases that but in this case it hasn't even occured to me that much.
This album was about me wanted to get it over with already, not how much I really liked her. It all makes so much sense now. I wrote an album that conveys how I felt about her and didn't even stop to think about what the music was conveying because I thought I knew how I felt about her. Shit. That's fucking deep.
Anyways that song in particular was supposed to be about whether or not to drop the bomb that I liked her.
Keep in mind, at this point in time I felt like I was at the closest I ever was to getting with her. Unfortunately I was doomed from the start.
Anyways uh, The birds. That one's just about all the fluttery feelings that she gave off. The first part gives that vibe off perfectly. Then the outro slows down and the song just melts. Holy fucking shit it's like I saw the betrayal coming. Except maybe that wasn't about the betrayal, maybe it was subconsciously knowing that something was unhealthy from the start. Maybe as I said earlier it was just about the sheer mental anguish being placed upon myself, by myself, for this person, and again, I didn't recognize it yet. Regardless, that part in particular gained a darker twist when I relistened to it after finding out about the betrayal and now after realizing how much pre-finding out stressed me out as well. I'm pretty sure I only did it because it was shorter than 2 minutes and I found it funny to add that outro because I'm a sadistic freak, lol.
The fourth track was about the sheer nervousness I felt around her. Legitimately I'd shake. This song has some really cool noise stuff. I like how I manipulated all the instruments to do unusual things, that was probably me listening to Disco Volante shining through. Anyways, I don't think I realized this but the sheer amount of nervousness probably wasn't a normal amount even for a crush.
FOR MY HEART BLEEDS IN SILENCE!!! WOOOOO!!! I LOVE THIS ONE!!! IT'S SO SCHIZO!!!
This one was about how I felt away from her. It was about how I just felt so love sick when I wasn't actively making some sort of "progress."
The highs were just so high at that point in time, just every time I'd get to talk to her. Fuck.
I love how it gets all fast during the reverse outro and how boomy the chinas are during it. And then the slow part is there and it sounds like hard-working machinery and like, ocean waves. It's so beautiful. And I love how noisey it gets in the slowdown part long before it with the snares and the bass interupting the other parts of the music. And then it gets fast again and then it's back to the piano slowing down. FUCK!!!! IT'S SO GOOD!!!!!!!
The Album-Titled track. I originally wasn't going to have a track named after the album, I was originally just going to release this as just a 9 song album. But then I went through some old There's No Saving this One era projects that never saw the light of day and found one for what I now used as the intro of Fall Rains Down Tonight. The first two parts were in that project (Originally called Random Beat 5-29), albeit I had struggled to put it together well which was why I had originally scrapped it (when trying to find this particular song I just found an unreleased 3 minute banger called "It's All Over" and I don't know why I scrapped it because it was really good for this era, I scrapped so much from that time period). However in November I was able to align the beat together better in order to be more musical and good and wow. This is literally my favorite song of this album now. The intro is so jazzy and I love the noise elements. Then it turns into this awesome piano piece. This song was yet another exploration on the "Should I rip the bandaid off now?" theme. This song being the climactic point in this album also sort of showcases the whole idea of me knowing that this was going to be the climactic point in my little crush adventure.
This song in particular got be Hella sad after finding out about the betrayal. In fact I used to listen to this album a lot after it. However I feel like this album only got more magical after finding out about it. In fact, I was very disappointed in this album when I first released it, I much preferred the Monster even though I feel like this one was much better in retrospect.
I love this album. It will always hold a special place in my heart. The emotions of it haven't changed, they've just been re-contextualized and that's honestly the beauty of art. Art will always change, no matter what. It will detereorize, it will die, it will be changed in view depending on the events of the viewer's life. That's what makes it awesome.
Eventually, before finding out about the betrayal, I wrote a poem about how I felt about her named after this album and using some of the song titles (mildly modified) as lines. In fact the original intent was for the titles to be mildly poetic with 2, 4, 5, and 6 being reminants of that (and they were reused as poem lines). I ripped up the physical copy of the poem that I was going to give to her (somehow, secretly, I hadn't figured that part out yet) when I found out about the betrayal, as well as (almost) every online version of it. But thankfully I had one version of it (albeit the rough draft version, but the only change was from "Unto" to "Into") saved to my Snapchat memories which thank fuck because I wouldn't have remembered it otherwise. I then recorded it for use later.
Well shit, that's the story of Fall Rains Down Tonight. Quite possibly my most emotional album, the most "me" I've put into an album at this point in time. The rest of the songs, like I said, were just silly songs that I wrote at the same time. I considered them just "bonus tracks." The 7th was a demon core reference, 8th was a joke about Djent as a genre name, the 9th was just something I came up with, and the last one was a BLT reference (the 1st I've made on the channel). It's 1:15 am right now, I should get to bed.
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